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22.4.10
09.03 | ▲TOP. .. .. he made twitter, he made twitter, HE MADE TWITTER exactly on 21st April 2010. oh my, he answer my prayers ! xoxo Heechullie oppa ^o^ how i wish someday he could read all my entries, heart-speaking with him through this blog. ah ah ah sooooo happpyyyyyyy :)))))) my friends (ELFBorneo), monica, and i promised ourselves, that if someday one of our husband <3> and now my husbanddddddddd is the first among ours !~ kyaaaaahhhh !~ here's his entry on cyworld !~ aaahh ahhh ahhhh !~ I made this just for the sake of making one.. But how to use this (-┏) Me who is behind the fashion Me who dont have Iphone.. There is nothing like background music.. There is nothing like handwriting.. There is nothing like Ilchon*.. * friends on cyworld, only those whom you add as your ilchon can leave comment on your cyworld’s first page, see/read the entries/photo that you set as private source : 김희철 미니홈피
don't worry my dear husband, i'll teach you until you know how to show your love to me xixi ~ Label: dream, happy, heart-speak, heechul, sweets, wish envy
18.4.10
03.19 | ▲TOP. asal lu tau, gw ngiri sama lu. gw ngiri lu bisa segitu dianggepnya sama orang yg lu idolain. gw ngiri lu bisa segitu seringnya ketemu sama orang yg lu idolain. gw ngiri lu bisa jauh sangat amat lebih baik akademiknya di bidang ini itu. nah gw ? apa ? nilai gw kedepak jauh sama lu. gw ga bisa nunjukkin apa bakat gw, apa yg gw bisa dalam akademik gw, gw ga bisa ketemu sama idola gw, ga bisa dianggep spesial sama dia, ga bisa sering ngobrol sama dia, mending ngobrol, say hello sama dia aja juga ga bisa ! sekarang gw punya kesempatan buat ketemu mereka. gw mohon lah kali ini, kali ini aja, biarin gw dapet apa yg gw pingin, apa yg gw mimpiin, ketemu sama idola gw, biarin gw seneng sekali aja. walopun emang gw ga bisa dianggep penting sama mereka, kaya lu dianggep penting sama idolalu. gw juga tau, istilahnya gw-dapetin-segalanya-dengan-gampang dan 'berlevel' tp gw mau gimana lagi, tiap hari gw bersyukur doang sama Tuhan atas semua yang gw dapetin gw juga pingin lu ngerasain gimana kaya gw dan gw juga mau ngerasain gimana rasanya kya lu ! ah. gw juga ga bisa ngutukin karunia Tuhan yg udah Tuhan kasih ke bokab gw kan ? gw juga mikir tiap hari gimana caranya gw bisa bagi2 yang udah Tuhan kasih ke gw. sigh. entahlah. setiap orang pasti susah ngerti orang lain. Label: angelteukkie, God, heart-speak, heechul, mind, school, secrets, stories worst
17.4.10
05.58 | ▲TOP. this is the worst. Heechul oppa, :(( my uncle passed away right this morning. miserable opening of the day. today's saturday night too. then it's gonna be the worst saturday night i've ever had. i don't have someone on my own. i have no someone special to cheer me up. doomed. hug me oppa :( a letter for You, Father .. He has been my favorite uncle among my uncles .. He understood me well, my feelings, adolescence i am facing. But never knew before, he would meant so much to me .. Promise me, God .. Take care of him there .. Make him happier there .. Forgive and forget all the mistakes he made, cleaned all the sins he done in life; Love him as he's one of Your favorite child .. Let him be an angel, beautiful butterfly for his family .. Every night be with them through the roughest part of reality; carry burdens they couldn't take. This might be a dusty letter which are not appropriate for You, God .. But i'm gratefully thanked You, to let me lean on You, let me cry on Your shoulders .. i hate farewell, for a century i will never love it. there's no other way, goodbye, uncle .. Label: family, God, goodbye, heart-speak, heechul, incidents, insane, sick, stories worse
16.4.10
08.43 | ▲TOP. Tuhan :( bener2 ga kuat :( banyak banget cobaan hari ini. banyak banget masalah :'((((( Heechul oppa, otokadjyo ? TT^TT Label: angelteukkie, God, heart-speak, heechul, memories, mind, misery, past, sick, stress, troublesome bad dream
11.4.10
05.00 | ▲TOP. p. s : i remember what day is it but now i forgot --. sorry --. 그를 내가 다시 꿈. 주요 요점은 내가 그와 함께 내부에있는 이유입니다. 내가 교통사 고있어. 내가 왜 그 생각을 수도있다 는걸 몰랐어. 하나님은 나에게 매우 실망해야합니다. 그는 신경, 그가 걱정. 그가 내 손을 내가 자고 있는거 들고 있었죠. 하지만 내 마음은 깊은 상처를 이전보다. 갑자기 깨어하고 있지만, 난 울었습니다. 내가 그 사람을보고 거절. 우리가 얘기하지 않았어, 내가 그에게 메시지를 썼습니다 그것은, 밝혔다 '왜 여기있는 거죠. 당신이 나에 대해 더 이상 신경 안써요. 당신은 더이상 날 사랑하지 않아. 당신이 더 이상 필요하지 않습니다. 네 여자로 넘어 가죠. 내 걱정은하지 않습니다. 난 괜찮아입니다. ^^' 내가 노려 그를 한 눈에를 자동으로 울었다. Label: angelteukkie, exam, God, goodbye, heart-speak, heechul, insane, memories, misery, nightmare, past, secrets, stress bad
2.4.10
06.45 | ▲TOP. guess i am born not to be beautiful .. like a dusty duck among the sparkling swans .. 저와 사랑에 어떤 사람 가을인가 ...? 못생긴 오리 :(( Label: God, heart-speak, heechul, love, misery, past, prayer, sick, wish sigh
29.3.10
06.39 | ▲TOP. ada satu hari dimana gw bener-bener takut ga bangun lagi. "kemaren malem gw terus mikirin apa gw salah apa gw salah, apa keputusan gw buat emosi itu bener apa salah." gila, gw stres, ga bisa mikir ... Tuhan, gw bimbang. Label: disappointment, exam, friends, God, heart-speak, heechul, insane, school, stress madness
06.05 | ▲TOP. 오, 너무 피곤해 ... 난 그저 내 친구에서 나의 가장 친한 친구의 행동에 대한 소식이 있어요. 그녀는 날 미치게 운전 ==" 나의 라이벌은 또한 그녀의 좋은 친구가 지금입니다!! 모든 사람들이 많이 변했어 ... 난 상관 없어. 내가 제정신이 아닌게입니다. Label: disappointment, exam, friends, heart-speak, heechul, school, stress, troublesome rehearsal
19.3.10
06.52 | ▲TOP. 오늘은 우리가 처음 춤을 리허설입니다 ... 내 친구와 나는 슈퍼 주니어의 노래 춤, 'Sorry Sorry' :D 우리는 매우 피곤하지만, 우리는 포기하지 마세요 = ^ ^ = 우리 모두가 자랑스러워 오파 슈퍼 주니어 알아! xixixi = ^ ^ = 우리는 파티 축하 공연에서 우리가 이별을 우리 학교에있다 ... 우리에게 행운을 빌어, 파이팅하세요! Label: angelteukkie, free, friends, heart-speak, heechul, school, stories, stress, sweets heecat
18.3.10
23.43 | ▲TOP. here's one article i found on http://heecat.com. heechul's childhood :D ★Since I was a kid, I am from Mars/Mars guy ★ My beauty makes others melts and feeling sorry/pity for me ★ I was forgotten by others! ★ I was a cool boy! ★I was not easy to be bullied! Yes, the girl who might be reading this now, I admit that my words were harsh, but you have to understand that I was still a kid back then! He He~ Okay back to the story! When I saw her turning red I added, “What a sad face, beat it! Go and play with other monster/pig! Could you please stop walking like you were stomping? It is so noisy! Even the ground shaken…” Right at that moment, she started to cry, howling on the ground! ★I just don’t understand adults ★My quiet school life ★Tae Kwan Do and I! I think my mother was embarrassed during that time, Ha Ha! I hated fighting, to be exact I don’t understand on why I have to fight. For me, fighting is when two kids quarreled about something that they don’t like. There was once, I really hit my opponent BADLY thus my coach scolded me! I thought, if we were fighting, why I can’t hit him (really hit him)? In the end I stopped going to Tae Kwan Do class when I started schooling! * – In my country we called it ‘Gasing’. I think in English it is caleld ‘Top’. Correct me if i’m wrong! Label: heart-speak, heechul, school, stories this is exam (part 1)
16.3.10
21.38 | ▲TOP.  (kaget liet muka sendiri, kelewat jelek gara2 UAS)  (ini ceritanya ga bernyawa lagi)  (tangan "V" = warning untuk para guru IPS) heechul 오파, 난 시험했다 ... 내일의 일정을 사회 과목입니다. 제가 경제, 사회학, 역사, 지리에 대해 공부합니다 ... 파이팅! Label: exam, heechul, insane, school, stress, whatever inspired
14.3.10
06.09 | ▲TOP. try to listen to it. i cried every time i watched this song's MV. click here. 돌아와 끝내 말 못하고 시간 틈새로 흘러 점점 멀어진 기억 몇번의 계절 지나 마주한 두 눈동자 아무말도 못하고 Within the whitely faded picture, Atop the bookshelf of memory, We were just faintly exchanging helloes Comeback, but to the end I still couldn’t say it And as the time flies by The memory fades away Many seasons passed 가슴이 차가운 남자가 울어요 이별에 모질던 그녀도 우네요And as we meet face to face I still couldn’t say it 바래진 추억 유리조각에 베인 상처 흔적만 남아 초라하네요 The cold-hearted man is crying At our parting, even she’s crying All that’s left are cuts From the faded memory-window fragments 파랗게 질려버린 하늘 굳어버린 입술 울컥 그립다 널 외치고 미련의 엉킨 인연의 끈 차마 풀지 못하고 다시 묻어두네요 먹먹한 가슴이 참지 못하고 달려 멀어진 니 등뒤로 The pure blue sky The rigid lips cry As I shout how much I miss you The string of fate tangled at lingering feelings Remains tangled Then it buries itself once again The suffering heart couldn’t hold back any longer And it’s chasing after your distant figure 가슴이 차가운 남자가 울어요 이별에 모질던 그녀도 우네요 바래진 추억 유리조각에 베인 상처 흔적만 남아 머물러 있는걸 oh stay, stay again, oh stay, stay again The coldhearted man is crying At our parting, even she’s crying All that’s left are cuts From the faded memory-window fragments Oh Stay~ stay again (oh stay~ stay again) 가슴이 차가운 남자가 울어요 이별에 모질던 그녀도 우네요 바래진 추억 유리조각에 끊긴 눈물속에 시간을 다시 묶어둘게 To Time The coldhearted man is crying At our parting, even she’s crying The time within tears cut apart From the faded memory-window fragments I’ll tie them together once again To tie, to tie 모르죠 이별한 남자의 눈물 못견디게 난 맴돌던 지친 한숨도 지독한 그리움 목 조르던 엉킨 우리 둘의 추억을 슬픈 하늘에 보내둘게 You wouldn’t know, the tears of broken boy The tired sighs circling around you, so you can’t stand it I will send our tangled memories That has been tightening around the throat venomously, to the saddened sky Label: heechul, past, songs, stories officially fifteen
12.3.10
05.41 | ▲TOP. Heechul 오빠, 안녕하세요 :) 난 아주 행복 해요! 내 친구들은 내가 수업을 입력 놀랐어요. 그들은, '행복한 생일 질렀다!' 그리고 따뜻한기도와 나를 반깁니다. 또한 화이트 보드에 내 이름을 받았다. 너무 행복한 아! 태양이 너무 밝은 미소가 아니라, 내가 제일 좋아하는 건데. 구름, 바람, 자연, 비, 멋진 하루. 우리는 또한 우리가 점심을 같이 보내세요. 웃음, 미소, 자자, 고통 ... 이 최고의 생일은 내가 먹어본 가지고있습니다. 비록 올해 나는 내 생일에 하나, 그건 상관 없어요 ... 내 친구들은 내가 사랑하는 진실한 내 모습 보여주했다 :) note : 꽤 제 전 남자 친구의 호감이 날 접견 좀 내려이야 ... 내가 만약에 범인의 얼굴이 날 수 있을지 잘 모르겠습니다. 그것을 6 개월 동안 주변되었습니다 ... 우리는 지금까지 서로를 충족하지 않은, 그리고 가장 좋은 방법은, 우리를 위해서입니다. 내가 그를 다시 만나고 싶지 않아. 는 것이 좋습니다 ... 그는 갔어 내 가슴에 큰 구멍을 천천히 최대한 빨리 회복됩니다 ... translations Heechul oppa, hello i am very happy! my friends surprised me when i entered the class. they shouted, 'happy birthday!' and greets me with a warm prayer. they also drew my name on the white board. ah so happy! sun smiles not too bright; my favorite. clouds, wind, nature, rain, wonderful day. we also spend our lunch together. laughs, grin, giggles, no pain. this is the best birthday i have ever had. even though this year, i am single in my birthday, it doesn't matter. my friends had showed me that i am loved :) note section, it's kinda private. sorry. do not use the Google Translate, it's weird. Label: family, friends, happy, heechul, school, stories, sweets birthday girl
9.3.10
00.45 | ▲TOP. 화요일, 9 March 2010 내 과거의 나를 다시 돌아갑니다 그날 것으로 보인다 ... 내일은 내 생일, Heechul 오빠 Label: heart-speak, heechul, mind, stories, wish unanswered questions
00.23 | ▲TOP. 월요일, 8 March 2010 만명에 둘러싸인, 난 아직 그 모든 절 혼자 집에 가고 싶어 ... 그 Michael Buble 노래의 일부입니다. 왜, 큰 오빠 알지 .. ? 화요일, 9 March 2010 부부의 시작과 끝, 그런데 왜 그들은 서로 연락하려고 계속합니까 .. ? 이특 오빠, 왜 범인이 고통이 심장을 치유 할수가 없다 ... Label: angelteukkie, heart-speak, heechul, mind, stories entries
6.3.10
07.02 | ▲TOP. 안녕하세요, Heechul 큰 오빠 :) 당신의 열성팬입니다. 당신은 내 큰 오빠 수있는가? kekeke 나는 TV에서 인터넷, 슈퍼 주니어 어디서나 존재하는 당신을보고 사랑 해요. 나는 종종 너무 비록 난 싸이월드했다는 싸이월드 업데이 트를 검색하면 내 친구의 한국어 번역에 대한 검색. 가끔은, 내가 혼자라고 느끼는, 난 그냥 당신의 생각과기도를 내 마음에 내가 뭘 바랍니다. 내가 왜 아니지만, 내가기도하고, 내가 기분이 당신에게 내 이야기를 공유하는지 모르겠어. 거의 동일하기 때문에 아마 당신의 성격과 나의 성격이다. 우리 둘 다 슬픈 노래처럼. 우리 F. Tisland 사랑 해요. 우리는 AB를 입력합니다. 우리는 우울합니다. 믿거나 말거나, 난 네 여동생이야! 하하하. 언젠가 우리가 만날 수 있으면 좋겠; 인도네시아에서 귀하의 슈퍼 보여 향후 3 년 (Hwaiting!) 그리고 만약 우리가 만나, 난 내 사랑, 내 그림을 안아 줄 것입니다. kekeke 그때 우리가 만나, 나는 당신이 나와 함께 공유하는 시간이 좀 여유가있을 좋겠어. 아무 때나, 큰 오빠가 필요 쓰는 것입니다. 당신이 내 글에서, 알았지 봐해야합니까? Label: free, heechul, hobby, stories sadness pour
26.2.10
23.14 | ▲TOP. Kim Heechul Super Junior's Cyworld. Baru saja aku kembali setelah berpergian dengan Kibum ^^ dan Jungmo ( Kibum dah sembuh toh ? ) Sepanjang perjalanan, kami bertiga hanya memutar lagu sedih Sesampainya di rumah, iseng membuka internet dan mengetik nama ”Kim Heechul”, dan kupikir sangat lucu, mengingat selama ini aku tidak pernah mencari nama-ku sendiri di search engine Apa yang harus kukatakan ? Ini agak sedikit memalukan, selain situs game, hampir dipastikan aku tidak pernah membuka situs – situs lain. Saat itu dalam pikiranku hanya…lebih baik aku tidak membaca isi pesan – pesan tersebut. Karena saat aku debut dulu, aku melihat terlalu banyak kritik dan caci maki bahkan saat aku berdiam diri di rumah. (- ┏) Dan setelah 4 tahun ? …Benar..ini sudah 4 tahun bahkan lebih… Dan kucoba melihat puluhan postingan yang sama sekali belum pernah kubaca sebelumnya Semua tulisan itu ditujukan kepadaku…saling berhubungan…forum diskusi…berita baru… Di beberapa blog yang kukunjungi, aku mendapati begitu banyak foto yang bahkan aku sendiri tidak tahu kalau itu adalah fotoku .. Ada banyak trivia dan hal – hal tentang diriku. Sejenak aku termenung dan menyadari suatu hal… Rupanya aku dicintai begitu banyak orang… Sulit bagiku mengucapkan kata terima kasih… aku terlalu malu mendengar kata – kata mereka semua… Meskipun beberapa terkesan begitu bodoh ^^… tapi aku merasa…” ..semua orang begitu menyukaiku…” Setelahnya, aku meminjam ID orang lain untuk masuk ke salah satu fan cafe… Aku terpaksa meminjamnya, sebab password ID-ku selalu berganti setiap saat….sulit bagiku untuk bisa ikut join di situs-situs semacam itu Tapi yang lebih menyedihkan, setiap kali aku mengganti nomor ponsel, hanya dalam tempo 24 jam ada orang yang bisa melacaknya. Yah..Bagaimana pun juga, dari sekian banyak situs CAFE yang kukunjungi…aku merasa… Ternyata ada banyak orang yang juga membenciku…ㅋㅋㅋㅋ Bila mengingat sejak kecil aku memang selalu dicinta-sekaligus dibenci orang….aku hanya bisa tertawa.. “Meskipun setiap orang beranjak dewasa, tetapi pada dasarnya mereka tetaplah orang yang sama, tidak berubah..” Hari ini, aku tidak bersemangat, aku bahkan tidak mood melirik postingan tentang diriku Meski beberapa diantaranya mampu membuatku mengerutkan alis Ada beberapa yang bercerita tentang “kesalahan”-ku… Meski kenyataannya apa yang mereka tulis itu tidak benar, tapi setidaknya… mereka menulisnya dengan kalimat yang sopan ##################### <<> Ada banyak nickname yang sangat kreatif, dan terdiri dari bermacam – macam bahasa.. ㅋ Aku tidak berkata itu baik (- ┏) hanya ingin sedikit bersenang – senang karena mood-ku sedang tidak bagus ㅋㅋ Saat aku mengatakan benar, maka itu memang benar.. Saat aku berkata salah, maka itu memang salah.. apa kau bisa seperti itu ? ^-^ Terkadang, aku membuka fan cafes dan anti cafes di saat yang bersamaan, dan ketika aku membacanya.. Diantara perasaan dicinta dan dibenci…hal pertama yang kurasakan sebelum itu adalah “Aku bersyukur, aku hidup ..” Bila kau bertanya Mengapa ?.. bukankah ada peribahasa yang mengatakan .. bahwa bisa hidup dan menghirup nafas merupakan salah satu bentuk kebahagiaan .. Aku ingin sekali berpergian seorang diri.. ke suatu tempat dimana hanya terdapat pegunungan, dan lautan luas.. Kadang, ada kalanya menatap ke atas langit dan melihat awan yang berarak….menatapnya lekat Kadang seringkali memandang jarum jam…belakangan ini aku selalu seperti ini Aku tidak pernah lagi memasukkan gambar ke minihompy-ku.. dan sudah lama sejak aku terakhir kali mengambil foto Selca.. Karena sudah tidak terhitung lagi berapa kali aku mengganti password.. karena para hacker.. Bahkan sempat terpikir..mungkinkah harus kututup minihompy ini ?.. Saat aku chatting dengan salah satu fans-ku, aku selalu bisa membahas topik ini dan itu dengan mereka… Tentu saja .. tak mungkin aku menutupnya bukan , (- ┏) Teman masa kecilku kini banyak yang telah menikah.. mereka telah memiliki anak – anak yang lucu .. Dan kini sudah banyak orang yang memanggilku Ahjussi ^-^ “dengan siapakah aku menikah kelak ..” “apa aku akan menikah ..” entah sejak kapan, aku tidak tahu lagi bagaimana rasanya mencintai seseorang Debaran..dorongan…rasa gemetar.. perasaan ini sudah lama menghilang .. Karena aku tidak begitu menyukai keramaian, aku terbiasa meneguk soju sambil bernyanyi sendiria n di rumah.. Mulai merokok..kemudian berhenti.. Mulai lagi.. dan berhenti kembali…. semakin aku beranjak dewasa, Tidak semua hal yang kudapat dapat kupahami dengan baik… Karena disaat aku harus melangkah maju, kenangan masa lalu akan selalu terbayang di dalam kedua mata ini.
Aku selalu membawa notebook dan menyempatkan diri menulis buku judulnya “Sellestice and his friend Karrion” ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ Ide – ide dalam kepalaku kutuangkan dalam bentuk tulisan. Tak peduli apakah hanya hal kecil..semua perasaan tersebut kutuangkan dalam tulisanku Tapi setelah kecelakaan itu, semuanya lenyap.. ㅋㅋ aku suka menulis dan sampai detik ini aku masih berusaha mewujudkan impianku Berbicara soal “impian” .. rasanya aneh , tapi juga menggelitik Kini, aku butuh 3 jam untuk menulis postingan ini..ㅋ sambil mendengarkan lagu ini, lagu itu…sepintas melihat keluar jendela , melirik Heebum.. Sekarang ini lagu dari Choi Jae Hoon’s… “I Cannot Forget You” [잊을 수 없는 너] Aku juga membeli albumnya, …Choi Jae Hoon, lagu – lagu yang dinyanyikannya teramat sedih.. Parting, Farewell, After Sending You Away, Last Rain, Tragic Fate, et cetera.. ㅠ_ㅠ [song titles] dan sekarang yang diputar adalah ~FT Island’s “Please Don’t Love (Me)” ㅋㅋ Setiap kali berjumpa dengan Hongki, aku akan memaksanya menyanyikan lagu ini ㅋㅋ Kesulitan, Kepedihan, Kesedihan, Luka, dan rasa sakit… Meski hidup selalu penuh kesedihan .. Tapi tak ada salahnya mencoba untuk selalu tersenyum ^-^ Lagu terakhir .. mungkin semua orang pernah mengalaminya.. Lee Seung Hwan’s “Heart Disease”………….^-^ Mungkin inilah hari paling membahagiakan Heenim, 1 hari…dari 365 hari yang dihabiskan sepanjang tahun Label: heart-speak, heechul, hopes, secrets |
