When the door closes..


Hello, aliens. You've just arrived in Saturn.
It's a weird world that we live in. Adjust yourself.


Beware of werewolves. Buzz Lightyear is our hero.
shout it out loud
22.4.10
09.23 | ▲TOP.


freedooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooom


"if you wanna be free, and the land is drug free
put your hands up, put your hands up
if you wanna be free, from all your misery
put your hands up, put your hands up

if you wanna be free, with plenty of money
put your hands up, put your hands up
if you wanna be free, just praise G O D
put your hands up, put your hands up"

Akon - Freedom

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envy
18.4.10
03.19 | ▲TOP.


asal lu tau, gw ngiri sama lu.

gw ngiri lu bisa segitu dianggepnya sama orang yg lu idolain.
gw ngiri lu bisa segitu seringnya ketemu sama orang yg lu idolain.
gw ngiri lu bisa jauh sangat amat lebih baik akademiknya di bidang ini itu.

nah gw ? apa ?

nilai gw kedepak jauh sama lu.
gw ga bisa nunjukkin apa bakat gw, apa yg gw bisa dalam akademik gw,
gw ga bisa ketemu sama idola gw, ga bisa dianggep spesial sama dia,
ga bisa sering ngobrol sama dia, mending ngobrol, say hello sama dia aja juga ga bisa !

sekarang gw punya kesempatan buat ketemu mereka.
gw mohon lah kali ini, kali ini aja, biarin gw dapet apa yg gw pingin, apa yg gw mimpiin,
ketemu sama idola gw, biarin gw seneng sekali aja.
walopun emang gw ga bisa dianggep penting sama mereka,
kaya lu dianggep penting sama idolalu.

gw juga tau, istilahnya gw-dapetin-segalanya-dengan-gampang dan 'berlevel'
tp gw mau gimana lagi, tiap hari gw bersyukur doang sama Tuhan atas semua yang gw dapetin
gw juga pingin lu ngerasain gimana kaya gw dan gw juga mau ngerasain gimana rasanya kya lu !

ah. gw juga ga bisa ngutukin karunia Tuhan yg udah Tuhan kasih ke bokab gw kan ?
gw juga mikir tiap hari gimana caranya gw bisa bagi2 yang udah Tuhan kasih ke gw.

sigh. entahlah.
setiap orang pasti susah ngerti orang lain.

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harlows
11.4.10
04.58 | ▲TOP.


helloooowwww, you fine ? :)

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sigh
29.3.10
06.39 | ▲TOP.


ada satu hari dimana gw bener-bener takut ga bangun lagi.

"kemaren malem gw terus mikirin apa gw salah apa gw salah,
apa keputusan gw buat emosi itu bener apa salah."



gila, gw stres, ga bisa mikir ...

Tuhan, gw bimbang.


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tomorrow
06.33 | ▲TOP.


어제 금요일이에요, 오늘은 토요일입니다.

yesterday is friday and today is saturday.
(previous post written on friday)

내가 좀 내 국가 시험은 이틀 동안 함께 다시 무서워요 :(((((

난 그녀를 이길 열심히 노력하고 있어요 !!

내 모든 운동 책이 완성되면 내 저녁 여가 시간을 보냈다.

내가 정말 원하는 작품을 내 노력이 희망이 나오지 않을 것이다 TTTTT_________TTTTT

을 강조했다 ...

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madness
06.05 | ▲TOP.


오, 너무 피곤해 ...
난 그저 내 친구에서 나의 가장 친한 친구의 행동에 대한 소식이 있어요. 그녀는 날 미치게 운전 =="
나의 라이벌은 또한 그녀의 좋은 친구가 지금입니다!!

모든 사람들이 많이 변했어 ...

난 상관 없어. 내가 제정신이 아닌게입니다.

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sociology diary
25.3.10
08.56 | ▲TOP.


오. 내가 정말로 그 얼굴은 진절머리가 난다 ...
교사, 팝업 ... 전 과목 나를 미치게하는 뜻 !! @_____@
끔찍한, 내 미친 지리학과 사회학 선생입니다 ~~

그녀는 불합리 말하는거야 ... !! =))))

이것도. 내가 왜 내 친구들은 전부 자신의 이야기를 공유하고 계속 궁금해 ...

... 위선 ...

그들이 무엇을 계획하기 전에하지 않습니다. =____________=
기차는 이미 떠나있다 ...



... 내가 어떻게 갑자기 번개 삼진있어 싫어 ...

우주는 어떻게 그 자체 외로움.
하지만, 무의식적으로, 난 아니에요 ...

친구 감사합니다 ... !!! :) :) :) :) :)
난 당신의 모든 사랑을 ...

하지만 만성적인 불신을 사랑 해요 ...

oh. i am sorely sick of those faces ...
teachers, ups, i mean subjects are driving me nuts !! @__________@
awful, my insane geography and sociology teacher ~~

she's talking irrationally ... !! =))))

this too. i wonder why my mates keep sharing out their tales of their ex ...

... hypocrisy ...

they do not do what they planned before. =__________________=
train is leaving already ...

... i hate how i got struck by lightning abruptly ...

universe do abhorrent loneliness.
but unconsciously, i am not ...

thank you, my friends ... !!! :) :) :) :) :)
i love you all ...

but i do chronically distrust love ...

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betrays
24.3.10
06.56 | ▲TOP.


the only difference between hypocrisy and neutralism is just,

the way people think about them.

they are nearly alike. dont be careless.




i am neutral, aint a hypocrite. oh poor you.

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rehearsal
19.3.10
06.52 | ▲TOP.


오늘은 우리가 처음 춤을 리허설입니다 ...

내 친구와 나는 슈퍼 주니어의 노래 춤, 'Sorry Sorry' :D

우리는 매우 피곤하지만, 우리는 포기하지 마세요 = ^ ^ =

우리 모두가 자랑스러워 오파 슈퍼 주니어 알아! xixixi = ^ ^ =

우리는 파티 축하 공연에서 우리가 이별을 우리 학교에있다 ...


우리에게 행운을 빌어, 파이팅하세요!

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heecat
18.3.10
23.43 | ▲TOP.


here's one article i found on http://heecat.com. heechul's childhood :D

★Since I was a kid, I am from Mars/Mars guy
I was born in the city of Hoengseong, Gangwon-do which is my grandparents’ place. After that, I moved to Seoul with my parents while my sister stayed. I only lived with her/stay together when i was 5 years old. I was small, so i don’t have any vivid memories of back then. But i do remember that we continuously moved to new places which as a result, i make less/don’t have friends. I spend my time playing alone/on my own.

★ I was a good little boy~!
My mother always said that i was a good boy because i never asked anything from them or cried easily. But if there were things that my parents promise will do to/for me and in the end it was never happened, I’ll throw tantrums, jumping/running around the house. My mother always bought me robots and dolls for my toys but I don’t like it! I always asked her, “What are my toys if I don’t like those 2 things?” Instead my mother replied with, “There is nothing that you actually like so I don’t know what to buy for you because you will end up playing with it although you don’t like it. If I don’t buy you things, you will complain saying that I don’t buy you stuffs.” As for cartoons, I like to watch anything that was popular during that time, I don’t have specific cartoon that I like. There’s nothing special with it.

★ My beauty makes others melts and feeling sorry/pity for me
Since i was small, i already have ‘pretty little girl’ image to others point of view. I still remembered when i went to the clothes/shoes department, the sales-person will show me apparels and shoes for girls. There were even cases where they knew that i was a boy but kept on saying that i was pretty and cute! Whenever they did that, i’ll have sour-face because i was never happy with that statement. But there was once my parents locked me outside of the house due to never-ending of crying. I banged, kicked, screamed at the door pleading them to let me in. At the same time, my neighbour was passing-by my house thus i turned my head looking at her with my big-black eyes. That lady smiled and persuades my mum to let me in saying, “This cute and polite boy could have never made a big mistake”. Ha Ha!

★ I was forgotten by others!
Other than being lonely, i was always been forgotten by others. There was one i played “Hide & Seek” with my friends, but because of i was too quiet back then, i can hide myself splendidly. Time passed by but still no one founds me yet until i learned that all of my friends forgot about my existence and went to their respective homes. Therefore, on the next day, when it was my turn, i pretended to look for them at first but then i went home (payback). Now thinking back, i still feel overjoyed doing it ^^ but yeah it was a sad time back then because i was not a popular kid and i even got a nickname – ‘weird kid’. Even the teachers felt that way too. All i could do was just smiled…

★ I was a cool boy!
When I was a kid, other than with my parents, I rarely being spoilt/show my affection to others. Even if I fell down and got hurt, I won’t cry or making a big deal about it. Instead I keep it to myself and went home. My mother said I was cool and I can control myself. I’ll cry quietly, and quickly got back on my feet when I have lift all of it off my shoulder. He he~ but I absolutely won’t cry if there were someone else there! My mother said, I rarely share my problem with others. Yes~ back when I was in nursery school, I’ll solve all of my problems perfectly without the help from others! I won’t let others but only me, fully responsible for it. When it comes to helping others, I won’t! Maybe that’s why I hated it if someone trying to help me!

★I was not easy to be bullied!
The fact that I don’t have lots of friends also includes the girls, even not liking me! I was once got hit by a girl who is older than me until it becomes a hot topic among others. I didn’t laugh or cry, I just went straight home. On the next day she bullied me again and this time she wants to steal away my meal. I couldn’t take it any longer thus I said, “Is being strong so great? Fine! Take my meal and eat it until u turn into a monster/pig! So do you want to hit me again?” As I thought what would have happened, her face turned red and stood still.

Yes, the girl who might be reading this now, I admit that my words were harsh, but you have to understand that I was still a kid back then! He He~ Okay back to the story! When I saw her turning red I added, “What a sad face, beat it! Go and play with other monster/pig! Could you please stop walking like you were stomping? It is so noisy! Even the ground shaken…” Right at that moment, she started to cry, howling on the ground!
All the other girls pointed their fingers at me, but I just don’t care and walk out of the class! When I came back, my meal was still untouched, so I said to that girl again, “Em? You still haven’t eaten it yet? I’ll leave it here so that you can eat it later.” She started to cry again and once again I was scolded by the other girls. But ever since that day, no one even dare to bully me again! I don’t get to know new friends? It’s okay because I actually don’t have lots of friends!

★I just don’t understand adults
There were rumors/words saying that I hated girls. Maybe because of I never held their hands or I was always alone. Even when my friend was sad or crying, I just let her be, doesn’t even care about it. I was just so quiet, minding my own business so people thought that I hated girls. Although I’m different/weird, but I never lay a finger on them. Maybe that’s why I was an unpopular kid! Em… yeah, I never skipped school although I was sick. There was once I went to school when I was ill. I sat at my place quietly while a boy right next to me keeps on being noisy. As a result, he was punished by the teacher… including me! Her reason was I didn’t scold/tell the boy to be quiet. I just don’t get it on why I have to do that? I keep on debating with my teacher until I said,”Fussy…” In the end I was scolded and I still remember it till today!

★My quiet school life
My academic results were good, I always got perfect score when I was in 1st grade and I was the only student in my school that got 100 marks. My teachers and my parents were so proud but… I don’t have any friends? I really cannot remembered any of my friends back then, the only thing I remembered is that I used to play with a big brother next door! During that time, Top* was very popular and everyone played it in groups. But because of I don’t like the fact to ask others, I played on my own in front of my house. After I practiced it for the whole day, I became a pro but quickly I got bored and went home just like that. There was once my father bought me a football/soccer-ball and I played it all by myself and in the end I went home, alone.

★Tae Kwan Do and I!
The truth is, I took a Tae Kwan Do class before I went to nursery school, but I don’t understand the real principles of Tae Kwan Do! I still remembered that my parents used to stand behind my back to see me practiced. They even couldn’t stop giving comments saying that my moves are slower than others and I have to keep up the pace. But to other parents, they thought that my mistakes were all cute.

I think my mother was embarrassed during that time, Ha Ha! I hated fighting, to be exact I don’t understand on why I have to fight. For me, fighting is when two kids quarreled about something that they don’t like. There was once, I really hit my opponent BADLY thus my coach scolded me! I thought, if we were fighting, why I can’t hit him (really hit him)? In the end I stopped going to Tae Kwan Do class when I started schooling!

* – In my country we called it ‘Gasing’. I think in English it is caleld ‘Top’. Correct me if i’m wrong!

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yahut
21.51 | ▲TOP.


WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!


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short devotion
06.08 | ▲TOP.


(here's a song called "Who am I" sung by Choi Siwon. the lyrics is tremendously beautiful.)


Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are


I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me


I am Yours
Whom shall I fear

Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

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hello mr sunshine
17.3.10
23.13 | ▲TOP.


수요일, 7 March 2010

오히려 하늘이 오늘 아침에 어둠입니다 ...

난 엄마 집었입니다.

학교로가는 길을 함께 내가 존경하는 하늘.

오히려, 너무 춥지 않아 우울한이야 ... 또한 아침 바람을 사랑 해요 ...

그리 나쁘진 않아 오늘은 희망입니다. 내가 늙었 ...



목요일, 8 March 2010

늘은 밝습니다. 난 오늘 아침에 젖은 느낌 ...

내가 왜 얼어 느끼는지 모르겠 목욕하는 동안. 하지만 빛이 날 워밍업.

내 머리 변덕쟁이입니다.

바라건대, 따뜻한 우유를 약간 완화. 이건 딸기!

그래서 내가 다시 행복하게 하늘을 볼 수있습니다 ...

하나님 감사합니다 ...

삶의 질을 높일 수가 없었 =^^=

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this is exam (part 1)
16.3.10
21.38 | ▲TOP.


(porsi 'tidak selera' atau porsi 'langsing')


(mencoba melampiaskan marah tapi jadinya manyun)

(kaget liet muka sendiri, kelewat jelek gara2 UAS)

(ini ceritanya ga bernyawa lagi)

(tangan "V" = warning untuk para guru IPS)


heechul 오파, 난 시험했다 ...
내일의 일정을 사회 과목입니다.
제가 경제, 사회학, 역사, 지리에 대해 공부합니다 ...

파이팅!

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backsound
14.3.10
03.51 | ▲TOP.


my top five songs i recently listened when i studied:

1. Living in the Heart - Untouchable feat. Narsha
2. It's Okay - Untouchable feat. Hwayobi
3. Perfect Man - ShinHwa
4. Round and Round - U-Kiss
5. Love Like This - SS501

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officially fifteen
12.3.10
05.41 | ▲TOP.


Heechul 오빠, 안녕하세요 :)

난 아주 행복 해요! 내 친구들은 내가 수업을 입력 놀랐어요.
그들은, '행복한 생일 질렀다!' 그리고 따뜻한기도와 나를 반깁니다.
또한 화이트 보드에 내 이름을 받았다. 너무 행복한 아!

태양이 너무 밝은 미소가 아니라, 내가 제일 좋아하는 건데.
구름, 바람, 자연, 비, 멋진 하루.

우리는 또한 우리가 점심을 같이 보내세요.
웃음, 미소, 자자, 고통 ... 이 최고의 생일은 내가 먹어본 가지고있습니다.
비록 올해 나는 내 생일에 하나, 그건 상관 없어요 ...
내 친구들은 내가 사랑하는 진실한 내 모습 보여주했다 :)

note :
꽤 제 전 남자 친구의 호감이 날 접견 좀 내려이야 ...
내가 만약에 범인의 얼굴이 날 수 있을지 잘 모르겠습니다. 그것을 6 개월 동안 주변되었습니다 ...
우리는 지금까지 서로를 충족하지 않은, 그리고 가장 좋은 방법은, 우리를 위해서입니다.

내가 그를 다시 만나고 싶지 않아. 는 것이 좋습니다 ...

그는 갔어 내 가슴에 큰 구멍을 천천히 최대한 빨리 회복됩니다 ...


translations

Heechul oppa, hello

i am very happy! my friends surprised me when i entered the class. they shouted, 'happy birthday!' and greets me with a warm prayer. they also drew my name on the white board. ah so happy!

sun smiles not too bright; my favorite.
clouds, wind, nature, rain, wonderful day.

we also spend our lunch together. laughs, grin, giggles, no pain. this is the best birthday i have ever had. even though this year, i am single in my birthday, it doesn't matter. my friends had showed me that i am loved :)

note section, it's kinda private. sorry. do not use the Google Translate, it's weird.

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under-pressure
5.3.10
05.21 | ▲TOP.


this week's activities

monday
i am total numb. seems i can still control my mood. less homeworks, most of them i had done it at school session's. but i have to study plkj for the test tomorrow. it successfully minus my mood.

tuesday
i am trying to enjoy this day. i got nothing to tell. about my plkj test, ah whatever. i felt like 'at least i wrote something, words, lines, in that blank paper.' forgot the rest

wednesday
hell begins. i had no energy, foods which usually boost up my mood, but this day i lost my appetite. tomorrow's tryout. today i had economy and english test. give it to God, surrender.

thursday
this is the worst among the worst days i have ever experienced. full of anger, mock, disappointment, all blends. my math tryout ruined, english good enough. tomorrow's science tryout. too sick. but im going ahead.

friday
today's quite fun. i gathered my mood and i am neutral today. the weather helps; wind, clouds. thankyou God, at least my grades for the tryouts not too bad. give up for the science, but im pretty sure i can do it. ah dont know.

guess this month will be high-pressured. the tests will keep running continuously. beware. ==

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scientific brain
20.1.10
05.19 | ▲TOP.


gyaaah. finally, today, yes today i recovered from the brain hospital ! happy happy LOL.

tomorrow is my last first tryout from school, ended with my favorite 'lovely' subject, english taught by grandpa gideon. why dont they skip this boring lesson ? ah. im not showing off, im just too lazy to think about grammar, close passage, blablah else.

anyway, today runs fast, i admit it. i done my science tryout on the first session, a little too not success LOL. we were given only about 1 and a half hour to do 40 questions from physics, biology and chemistry. guess what ? im just giving it to God's hand. hahaha ! next, after a 20-minute break, i had a math test, and its all about the sequence, sequence. i can do the first and half from the second part, and i got stuck on the third part. aaaaa i dont careeee about the result. like i said before, im just giving it to God's hand. *angel*

but overall, im just, happy. eventhough i am greeted by my mother's shout when i arrived home, im just enjoying this day. my friends really help me a lot, help me to release this kinda pressure. oyaa, today i started my computer assignment with my group. heres our blog url if you wanna visit,

http://wear-it-to-school.blogspot.com

after finishing our first step in blogging, we eat KFC. totally bad for my diet, but its just onceeeeeeeeee. forgive me yaa, God. i promise to decrease my weight till it reaches it 'normal' again. hahaha ! :D

okaaay, im planning to write 2 more posts which keep muttering my mind, but its too late, i mean, i got to go to bed soon LOL. seeyaaa !

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GOSH tryouts already
18.1.10
05.24 | ▲TOP.


okay, exactly today i started to have the tryouts. this week will be from the school, and next week will be from the government. oh gosh, im a 9th grader now ! how fast it is ?

hari ini jadwalnya, mat. gw uda belajar dari buku2 latian soal sejak hari jumat lalu sampe hari minggu kemaren (dengan beberapa sedikit gangguannya). hari minggunya, gw sehari penuh jalan bareng fam ke PIM 2 bareng kakak ipar gw. gw niatnya mau belajar tuh, tp karna pulangnya uda keburu kemaleman, jadi yah mau tak mau harus mau ninggalin buku itu dengan senang hati. *ups*

hari ini, yak, hari ini, gw dan teman2 gw cuma dapet waktu 1 jam dan 15 menit buat ngerjain 40 soal matematika laknat yang source nya dari UAN 2005-2006. karna gw nyantai dan sangat amat detil dalam menghitamkan onde2 bernomor itu, otomatis gw ngelewatin nomor2 yg gw ga bisa, supaya gampang juga kaan, nanti terakhir baru gw kerjain. and you know what, time is up. yeah, the time is u p. the time stops ticking when it reaches 8.15. dan kalian tau ? gw satu2nya orang yg masih ngerjain ! astaga. karna uda ga sanggup berpikir, otak uda panas, gw ngasal ngelingkarin. dan gatau bagaimana ini hasilnya. pasrah aja TT________TT

malemnya, gw pikat. ye well, nothings special. hingga suatu waktu kertas soal gw jatoh, dan gw berusaha memungutnya.

pertama gw pake capitan jempol gw, ga berhasil. gw nunduk buat ngambil, tangan ga sampe. akhirnya gw tereak, 'gw tau gw pendek jangan ngeledek deh lu !' lalu gw bangun dari kursi, coba ngambil, masih ga keambil. eh tiba2, gw uda mau nyungsep, otomatis gw tahan dong sambil ngambil kertas soalnya. tanpa sadar gw latah gw bilang, 'eh mati bego lu pak !' gw langsung speechless.

akhirnya gw minta maaf terus sama si bapak. aduh, ngerasa bersalah jadinya. hiks hiks.

yah begitulah hari ini, not too bad. gw juga cukup enjoy hari ini, dan mood gw kalem2 aja : )
thanks a lot, Lord.

hasil TO nyaa ditunggu yaa TT^TT

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