When the door closes.. Hello, aliens. You've just arrived in Saturn. It's a weird world that we live in. Adjust yourself. Beware of werewolves. Buzz Lightyear is our hero. |
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Bless myself for a goodbye.
4.12.10
06.54 | ▲TOP. 1. last beverage: a glass of orange juice 2. last phone call: Mom 3. last text message: Gege 4. Last song: Nothing on You - B.O.B feat. Bruno Mars 5. last time you cried: I cried when I couldn't hold wounds he caused in silence HAVE YOU EVER: 6. dated someone twice? Yeah 7. been cheated on? Yeah 8. Regretted kissing someone? No 9. lost someone special? Yeah. Really special. 10. been depressed? MOST of the time 11. been drunk and threw up? No LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12. Navy 13. Maroon THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010) 15. Made a new friend? Lots 16. Fallen out of love? Yeah. With a wrong one. 18. Met someone who changed you? Not yet 19. Found out who your true friends were? Yeah :) 20. Found out someone was talking about you? Yeah 21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list? Should my mom be included? GENERAL: 22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life: A hundreds? 23. NO QUESTION! What the.. 24. Do you have any pets: Yeah 25. Do you want to change your name? Yeah.. Sorta. 26. What did you do for your last birthday? Hmm.. Shot by waters and locked in the bathroom 27. What time did you wake up today? Half past eleven 28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Singapore's Super Show 3! 30. When was the last time you saw your mother: 15 minutes ago? 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? My pathetic love story 32. What are you listening to right now? Mine - Taylor Swift 33. Have you ever known to a person named Tom? Tommy 34. What is getting on your nerves right now? Logarithm 35. Most visited webpage: YouTube, Twitter, Koreanindo 36. No question: ... 37. Nicknames: Cynth, CynCyn, Toeng. 38: Relationship Status: Single and.. needing someone to hold on to? 39. Zodiac Sign? Pisces 41. Elementary school? St. Kristoforus II 42. Middle School? Citra Kasih JHS 43. High School? St. Laurensia SHS 44. Hair color? Black 45. Long or short? Medium 47. Do you have a crush on someone? Yeah right now. 48: What do you like about yourself? I'm.. tough enough in carrying pains. 49. Piercings? Yeap 50. Tattoos? No 51. Righty or lefty? Righty FIRSTS: 52. First surgery= Never 53: First Piercing= Does that sound necessary? 54. First best friend = 7th grade 55. First sport you joined = Basketball 56. First vacation = Bali 57. No 57 either. = Either? 58. First pair of sneakers: Converse RIGHT NOW: 59. Eating- Nothing 60. Drinking- Orange Juice! 61. I'm about to- Watch Harry Potter again. 62. Listening to- Fireworks - Katy Perry 63. Waiting for- YOU! 64. Want kids? Absolutely. 65. Get Married? Not right now. 66. Career? A geek in a class of x-6 67. Lips or eyes? Eyes 68. Hugs or kisses? Can I ask for both? : ( 69. Shorter or taller? Taller 70. Older or Younger? Older 71. Romantic or spontaneous? Romantic 72. Nice stomach or nice arms? Arms 73. Sensitive or loud? Sensitive and loud. Both should be balanced. 74. Hook-up or relationship? Relationship 75. Trouble-maker or hesitant? Trouble-maker HAVE YOU EVER : 76. Kissed a stranger? No 77. Drank hard liquor? Yes 78. Lost glasses/contacts? Yes 79. Sex on a first date? No 80. Broken someone's heart? Yeah I think.. So. 81. Had your own heart broken? I've been numb enough. 82. Kissed on a first date? Yeah 83. Stayed up for more than 24 hours? No 84. Cried when someone died? Yeah 85. Fallen for a friend? Eheh. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 86. Yourself: Not really 87. Miracles: Yeah.. 88. Love at first sight: It's ridiculous but yes. 89. Heaven: Of course 90. Santa Clause: Yeah! 91. Kiss on the first date: No 92. Angels: Yeah ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 93. Had more than one bf/gf at the same time? No I'm not a player. 94. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yeah. Him. And.. Him. 95. Did you sing today? Yes 96. Ever cheated on somebody? No 97. If you could go back in time, how far back would you go, and why? 4 years ago. Before we're going to separate, I'll say.. "I love you. I know you're not but I just want to say it." 99. Are you afraid of falling in love? Yeah. Fallen too deep. 100. Are you posting this as 100 truths? Yes. 10.27
28.6.10
08.14 | ▲TOP. This is one reason why I'd like to go abroad. This is one reason why I'd like to live independently, all by myself. Parents take an important role, I know, we know as well. Could it be, that I am now is the result of what my parents had taught me? I mean, my mother, scolds and shouts, whenever, wherever, Does she the one, who caused me to fear, fear the universe, caused me to turn fragile, rude, and over-sensitive? I've just realized it today, yes, she is. I can't seem to heal these wounds, as day by day she kept wounding me continuously. But the only thing I believe, I commit, is to keep standing up, though my nose bleeds uncontrollably, though I lost my legs, though I am on my own; cause my father's patience, is my strength, my defense to my mother's scolds. Label: heart-speak a quarter to one
17.6.10
10.25 | ▲TOP. There is a say, "Love the one that hurts you, but never hurt the one that loves you." Consider me a fool, loving you still, though I knew it hurts. Consider yourself a genius, hurting me indeed as a form of love. Yes, I am. I am a fool, dull-witted girl, who once had you; once loved you.., once believed in you. You should thanked me, for my gullibility. You should thanked me, for giving a world, world to you. Anyway, from the start, I should have been realistic. Me and you, are indefensible. It is permanent. Label: heart-speak 1.18
13.6.10
11.01 | ▲TOP. I hated opening my eyes I don’t know why I can’t move on The ring that I placed on your finger Are these only my memories?
The ring that I placed on your finger The ring that I placed on your finger Label: dawn, heart-speak, sick, songs forever
9.6.10
06.19 | ▲TOP. forever .. it will always better, to be all alone .. forever .. Label: heart-speak life lesson
3.6.10
07.58 | ▲TOP. for you, who complains life, considering it is unfair.. remind, death, is thousand times more unfair than life. Label: heart-speak hhhh
04.13 | ▲TOP. "once you're weak, you're forever weak. whenever you try, whenever you convince yourself you're strong enough.. it stands still." - a quote by me ah come on, cynth. you should not shed tears while you are spooning out your meal, smile, even your tears falling down. don't know why i become this fragile, but it hurts. even it's not a huge things to worry, even it's a tiny little things called dust, it hurts, and i can feel it, exactly where you had dug. Label: heart-speak graveyard
2.6.10
07.33 | ▲TOP. you're too silly. there, in the middle of the pathway, a dorky her giggle. "finally," she said. "finally, i could show you what you could not see of me." thanks to you, Mr. Basketball Label: heart-speak gwang-gi.
11.5.10
09.03 | ▲TOP. 나는 화가입니다 ... 내가 그것을 도울 수 없어요 .. 그녀가 나의 가장 친한 친구 중 하나이다. 난 절대 생각 난 그녀와 함께 싸울 수있는 우리의 작별 인사를합니다. 그녀는 뭔가 이상한 것을 내가 용서할 수가 없었 다 ... 이 세상은 너무 혼란 스럽군 ... 내가 때마다 나는 바닥에 오전 주위에 선회입니다. "때마다 내가 좋은려는, 나는 잘못된 생각입니다. 왜, 하나님 ...?" "내가 날 잘 이해하고 좋은 친구 나의 진실한 찾을 수 있나요 ...?" 하나님, 내가 잘못입니까 ...? 항상 내 잘못이야 ...? 이러한 상처가 치료하고 싶지 않아 왜 ...? 제 마음은 자라고 더 깨지기 쉬운 일상 ... Label: freak, God, goodbye, heart-speak, prayer, secrets, sick, stories, troublesome, wish |
